2010, what a year.

I turned 20,
I lost Cookie,
I got Chloe,
I said goodbye to someone I love,
I lost a good friend,
I made a new friend,
things got interesting with this new friend,
I fought with this new friend,
I made up with this new friend.
I went to a club for the first time,
I did not sleep much,
I did not really eat healthy,
I got good grades,
I spent 1/3 of my summer high/drunk,
I decided I do not believe in God,

I survived.

off the rail

I can't sleep.

It sucks when you break your own promises...

Promises you make to yourself.

Mari,

when you read this in... I don't know, 3 years?

know that you...

you broke up your own home.

To a Stranger by Walt Whitman

Passing stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you,
You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me as of a dream,)
I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you,
All is recall'd as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,
You grew up with me, were a boy with me or a girl with me,
I ate with you and slept with you, your body has become not yours only nor left my body mine only,
You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass, you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return,
I am not to speak to you, I am to think of you when I sit alone or wake at night alone,
I am to wait, I do not doubt I am to meet you again,
I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

i want you

i want you soooo bad

it's raining in my head

I was looking forward to tonight,
but then something told me not to go...

So I'm staying here.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

rain go away

I'm starting to hate the rain :/
I'm stuck at home, watching House, fascinating show.

This is gonna be a long, lonely, boring, break.

I think I want school to start already,
I rather be busy than have all this time to dwell on what
I've done wrong.

I don't know what to do.

This Guy

to go or not to go

I want to go to the library to look at photography books but it's raining.
I don't feel like going out in the rain.
It's weird but I miss the sun :(

Anyway, I think I'm just going to stay home and surf the internet.

Look at random stuff, like this:

I'm obsessed with this song

my heart hurts

and this is fascinating

new pictures

going through my pictures and I found these...

(click to enlarge)


test shot.


I got thirteen channels of shit on the tv to choose from.


stuff by my favorite photographers taped on my wall.


my favorite shot from "Dog Sees God"

awesome video

Enjoy your worries

you may never have them again

#9 Dream

I dreamt that you came back into my life,
you walked into my room and kissed me.

Ah, böwakawa poussé, pousséah.

weird but listening to #9 dream makes me feel closer to you, hah.

Coney Island

I wanna go

Finally some free time

watching The Office right now



pretty funny :p

Danger Mouse and Sparklehorse

I bought Dark Night of the Soul and I can't stop listening to it.
Great album, and I love the photography for it!

Come in number 51, your time is up

Listening to Pink Floyd,

trying to come up with a good title for a paper that I have not started.

I rather just listen to Pink Floyd...

I love Pink Floyd so much.

Their music always gets me through.

thanksgiving

everyone's status on facebook has something to do with thanksgiving and
how great family and friends are... blah.

I'm not doing anything for thanksgiving, I never do.
My mom is going over to her sister's house for thanksgiving dinner,
and I,
I'm just staying home.
Eating grilled cheese sandwiches with homemade fries, drinking pomogranate soda,
and watching tv, though i should be doing hmwk, eh.

Anyway, I don't like the holidays
they make me sad.

when i said "I can see me in your eyes"

you said "I can see you in my bed,"
that's not just friendship, that's romance too

Does anybody here remember Vera Lynn?

Remember how she said that,
we would meet again some sunny day.

Vera, Vera, what has become of you?
Does anybody else in here,
feel the way I do?

Listening to Pink Floyd and Vera Lynn at the same time?
Haha

Sparklehorse

-1

I always lose friends.

I lost another one yesterday.

It's usually because they:

a) treat me like shit
b) do not appreciate me
c) fall in love with me
d) I fall in love with them
e) all of the above

Thing is, I really liked this friend,
and this friend liked me, but we are just too different.
Oh well, I'll get over it, eventually.

I'm thankful for

pumpkin pie.



I've seriously eaten like almost half a pie.

the holidays suck

I want these!

lens bracelets :D

Salvador Dali

Cindy Sherman

you're sending smoke signals, I know your secret code

Duane Michals photography

I dig it.

Sunday

hahaha

I've seriously seen this over 100 times :p

a young Frida Kahlo.

I dig this

sad

Sometimes I wish I was one of those happy people that is in a committed relationship.

I've never really been in a relationship, they have never worked for me.

And I don't think I could make one work right now to be honest.

I'm always doing something, I don't have much free time.

But it does get lonely :(

Okay, off to study for another midterm.

Thought #26

I think I'm starting to "like" a friend.

I look at my phone every 5 minutes,
and I find myself doing things obsessed people do.

Hm...

Anyway, I don't have time to waste, I should be studying
for a midterm! :(

I miss having time to look for pictures like this:

Listening to

Lennon Favorites

I've done Radiohead, Pink Floyd, and Led Zeppelin. Now, my favorite John Lennon songs :)



1. #9 Dream
2. Mind Games
3. Mother
4. Stand By Me
5. Love
6. Watching the Wheels
7. Oh My Love
8. Imagine
9. Instant Karma
10. Jealous Guy
11. Happy Christmas (War Is Over)
12. (Just Like) Starting Over
13. I'm Losing You
14. Nobody Told Me
15. Borrowed Time
16. Look at Me
17. Oh Yoko!
18. Woman
19. Give Peace a Chance
20. God

Happy Birthday John Lennon

10/09/1954 - 12/08/1980

nostalgia

:(

shade my eyes

and I can see you...

this photograph is my proof

"This photograph is my proof. There was that afternoon, when things were still good between us, and she embraced me, and we were so happy. It did happen, she did love me. Look see for yourself!"

Taking pictures for a theatre program in an hour...

kind of excited :)

Self portrait

"And that isn't just external either - give to yourself too."

I'm seriously not a morning person,

but this morning I woke up feeling really good...

<3 <3 <3

:)

mi Frida

Went to the Placita Olvera in downtown LA today,
saw a lot of Frida Kahlo stuff and it made me happy.

She will never be forgotten... never!

Here I go and I don't know why

I fell so ceaselessly



could it be he's taking over me...

don't get any

big ideas...



they're not gonna happen.

i want to see you

more than anything...

hah!

Woah

I met you out of nowhere
and it has only been about a week
but already I miss you when I'm not with you

and when I'm not with you I'm counting the minutes until I get to
see you again.

Felicidad

Ha ha charade you are

I thought I had all of Pink Floyd's awesome songs, but then he played me this one.



and I got all of them now :)

Confusion

Am I really moving on or am I just trying to trick myself into thinking that?

Haha, oh love.

love, love, love.

I love this commercial

Arcade Fire

but late at night the feelings swim to the surface

I think that when you die
you go back to where you were before you were born...

and then maybe you are born again

Sparklehorse, Sparklehorse, Sparklehorse

in my garden


Chloester

tell me, what is my life without your love,

tell me, who am I without you, by my side...

I think he is my favorite

Listening to his All Things Must Pass album, again.

please please, baby lemonade

Listening to Syd Barrett because a friend reminded me how cool his solo stuff is. I was listening to a lot of CocoRosie, George Harrison, The Beatles and other stuff that I had forgotten how much I love Pink Floyd, especially Syd Barrett's stuff. I love Pink Floyd... Oh, I've been feeling like a crazy person lately :/


Gonna take pictures this week though!

cant stop listening to this

:(

poppies

are my new favorite flowers...


(photo: http://www.flickr.com/photos/myothertruelove)

I still love my daisies though :)

it's in the neon bible

no dancing shoes?

So I went to a club last night.
First time going to one too!
It was fun, I had fun...
But I kinda felt out of place,
see, I'm not much of a dancer :/

Anyway, they played this song and I really like it :)

i love this right now

George Harrison: Hare Krishna Maha-Mantra

I won a photo contest

so happy :)

Mom and Dad

Some say I look like my mom, others say I look more like my dad.
I think I look more like my dad.
But sometimes, I don't know, I feel I look more like my mom.
Hm...

George Harrison ♥

lovely lovely song

I love this

my heart breaks a little every time I hear this song

:(

In the end, all I have are my Radiohead albums
and they always help me get through...

Hm

flower power