Thursday, December 30, 2010

2010, what a year.

I turned 20,
I lost Cookie,
I got Chloe,
I said goodbye to someone I love,
I lost a good friend,
I made a new friend,
things got interesting with this new friend,
I fought with this new friend,
I made up with this new friend.
I went to a club for the first time,
I did not sleep much,
I did not really eat healthy,
I got good grades,
I spent 1/3 of my summer high/drunk,
I decided I do not believe in God,

I survived.

Monday, December 27, 2010

off the rail

I can't sleep.

It sucks when you break your own promises...

Promises you make to yourself.


when you read this in... I don't know, 3 years?

know that you...

you broke up your own home.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

To a Stranger by Walt Whitman

Passing stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you,
You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me as of a dream,)
I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you,
All is recall'd as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,
You grew up with me, were a boy with me or a girl with me,
I ate with you and slept with you, your body has become not yours only nor left my body mine only,
You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass, you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return,
I am not to speak to you, I am to think of you when I sit alone or wake at night alone,
I am to wait, I do not doubt I am to meet you again,
I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

it's raining in my head

I was looking forward to tonight,
but then something told me not to go...

So I'm staying here.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

rain go away

I'm starting to hate the rain :/
I'm stuck at home, watching House, fascinating show.

This is gonna be a long, lonely, boring, break.

I think I want school to start already,
I rather be busy than have all this time to dwell on what
I've done wrong.

I don't know what to do.

This Guy

to go or not to go

I want to go to the library to look at photography books but it's raining.
I don't feel like going out in the rain.
It's weird but I miss the sun :(

Anyway, I think I'm just going to stay home and surf the internet.

Look at random stuff, like this:

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Saturday, December 11, 2010

my heart hurts

and this is fascinating

Thursday, December 9, 2010

new pictures

going through my pictures and I found these...

(click to enlarge)

test shot.

I got thirteen channels of shit on the tv to choose from.

stuff by my favorite photographers taped on my wall.

my favorite shot from "Dog Sees God"

awesome video

Enjoy your worries

you may never have them again

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

#9 Dream

I dreamt that you came back into my life,
you walked into my room and kissed me.

Ah, böwakawa poussé, pousséah.

weird but listening to #9 dream makes me feel closer to you, hah.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Finally some free time

watching The Office right now

pretty funny :p

Danger Mouse and Sparklehorse

I bought Dark Night of the Soul and I can't stop listening to it.
Great album, and I love the photography for it!