Tuesday, May 25, 2010


If I were a month, I’d be October
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Tuesday
If I were a time of day, I’d be dusk
If I were a planet, I’d be the moon
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a starfish
If I were a direction, I’d be East
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a nightstand
If I were a liquid, I’d be seawater
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a black onyx
If I were a tree, I’d be a willow tree
If I were a tool, I’d be a pair of scissors
If I were a flower, I’d be a yellow daisy
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be cloudy
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a guitar
If I were a color, I’d be blue
If I were an emotion, I’d be apprehension
If I were a fruit, I’d be a pomegranate
If I were a sound, I’d be the wah-wah sound a guitar makes
If I were an element, I’d be water
If I were a car, I’d be a 1965 VW van
If I were a food, I’d be comfort food
If I were a place, I’d be an abandoned house
If I were a material, I’d be glass
If I were a taste, I’d taste like cotton candy
If I were a scent, I’d be burning incense
If I were an animal, I’d be a friendly dog
If I were an object, I’d be a record player
If I were a body part, I’d be lips
If I were a facial expression, I’d be contemplative
If I were a song, I’d be Hurdy Gurdy Man by Donovan

I've seen this over 50 times

gotta love Bob Dylan.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Friday, May 21, 2010


I met up with an old friend everyday this past week.

It was nice seeing and hanging out with them again.

Though there is still one person I'd like to see.

But I don't think that's gonna happen :/

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Monday, May 17, 2010

we can reach the sea

they won't follow me.

the strangers

soooo fucking scary. I remember feeling sick after watching it.

Sunday, May 16, 2010


... just bought the series.
look there's a cloud over my head...

and now I'm eating it.

I have too much free time now that school is over...
I'm going to go take pictures now.


I love cotton candy, it's so fun and delicious. I just love it.
I hope to own a cotton candy machine someday.
And maybe even a popcorn machine...

I love this so much right now.

I have it on repeat

Saturday, May 15, 2010

or maybe like this

I don't know exactly what I want right now,
and I still have two more years until I leave.

All I know is that I want a big comfy couch.

or like this

when i have my own place

my living room is going to look something like this

Friday, May 14, 2010


I want a horse

but I can't have one now,
so I'll just settle for a bike.

I rode my mom's bike around the neighborhood today.
I was wearing my pajama pants and my mom was walking Maps on the sidewalk.

It was nice.

I think I'm going for a ride tomorrow morning.

Syd Barrett

shine on you crazy diamond

Let's go down the waterfall
think about the good times and
never look back

Thursday, May 13, 2010

my stomach hurts

and this creeps me out.

I bought a family album filled with vintage photographs at an antique store I have been meaning to upload.

Maybe this weekend.

Right now I have a killer headache and a tummy ache.

The night scares me again.


Capricorns born on January 12 enjoy giving the impression they are more adventuresome than they are. They possess a sense of humor and the ability to transcend their limitations. Bold, imaginative, and undisciplined, they have an intellectual sophistication that few people appreciate.

Friends and Lovers

People born on this date sometimes struggle to make friends due to a natural shyness they hide. Insecurity and a fear of abandonment can create problems in relationships. To feel loved and appreciated, they must learn to trust their mate. Once this has been accomplished, they are likely to lose other insecurities.

You should embrace:
Bravery, trust, exuberance

You should avoid:
Self-delusion, riding the moral high horse, incompetence

Children and Family

The attitude problems of some January 12 individuals are likely to be the result of their upbringing. They may have been raised in a critical atmosphere. Parenthood lets them tap into a different area of their psyche, promising positive emotional growth.


While those born on this date generally have a strong constitution, they may be prone to injuries and ailments. Taking chances gives them a feeling of power. Getting rid of bad health habits can be a challenge. More fresh fruits and vegetables, as well as vitamins, can work wonders.

Career and Finances

January 12 people seek the limelight, looking for validation. Though they have talent, they don't always recognize their own skills. Sensible money-handling can be challenging for them. Since they often equate success with the amount of money they earn, they feel good about themselves by spending the money they make. Credit debt can be a problem.

Dreams and Goals

Conquest of their doubt is the best goal January 12 people can have. They must learn to believe in themselves before they can make others believe in them. They usually have a well-conceived plan for success. They're willing to work hard, learning much from failure.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

There has been this awful silence since she left.
Maps is sad and it breaks my heart to see him so down.
It's obvious he misses her.
I miss her too, we all do.

You will never be forgotten my sweet sweet girl.

Cookie left us on May 11th, 2010.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

i'm really digging the magnetic fields right now

i need to get their music...

i like that you look like a bum

it makes me feel closer to you.

everything ends

i can't deal with death anymore.
that's why i'm scared of loving someone so much
because then it hurts like hell when i lose them.
my baby is not doing well at all, we may be putting her to sleep this week.
i love Cookie so much, i had her since right after my dad passed away.
she protected me til this day. i felt so save with her here.
she is part of my little family and now she may be leaving forever.
and i don't know how Maps is going to deal with it...
Fuck. I just want to stay in bed and watch Six Feet Under,
and forget about everything.
i don't know anymore...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Monday, May 3, 2010

I have no family.

I really do not feel like I'm part of my mother's family, and I have not talked to my dad's family since he died (11 years ago.)

My mom's mother is in the hospital right now and is in critical condition.
It hurts me to see my mother cry, and it hurts me that she (my mother) is in pain.

And I just found out that my cousins have been texting/calling each other, but they do not bother calling or sending me a text message to let me know what is going on, or to see how I'm doing.

I really do not feel like I have a family.

And I don't think that bothers me, and I'm trying not to let it bother me.

It makes it easier for me to think of leaving without saying anything and feeling guilty. Because I do not plan on keeping in touch with my mother's family if something were to happen to my mother. I'd just leave and start my own life, create my own family.