I really do not feel like I'm part of my mother's family, and I have not talked to my dad's family since he died (11 years ago.)
My mom's mother is in the hospital right now and is in critical condition.
It hurts me to see my mother cry, and it hurts me that she (my mother) is in pain.
And I just found out that my cousins have been texting/calling each other, but they do not bother calling or sending me a text message to let me know what is going on, or to see how I'm doing.
I really do not feel like I have a family.
And I don't think that bothers me, and I'm trying not to let it bother me.
It makes it easier for me to think of leaving without saying anything and feeling guilty. Because I do not plan on keeping in touch with my mother's family if something were to happen to my mother. I'd just leave and start my own life, create my own family.