i can't deal with death anymore.
that's why i'm scared of loving someone so much
because then it hurts like hell when i lose them.
my baby is not doing well at all, we may be putting her to sleep this week.
i love Cookie so much, i had her since right after my dad passed away.
she protected me til this day. i felt so save with her here.
she is part of my little family and now she may be leaving forever.
and i don't know how Maps is going to deal with it...
Fuck. I just want to stay in bed and watch Six Feet Under,
and forget about everything.
i don't know anymore...